Shape of You by Ed Sheeran

I went to a club some days ago and I heard this song that got me pumping and feeling really good. I later found out that it was Shape of you By Ed Sheeran. It’s from his album
➗” ( DIVIDE).  I was really shocked because I’m wasn’t a fan of his music at all but Shape of You made me want to listen to more songs from him. And I also listened to his other songs and I can finally see why people love him and his music so much. It’s so heartfelt and emotional and true. I really didn’t get the whole hype about Ed Sheeran, but listening to Shape of You showed me what the hype was all about. And his songs are totally worth the hype. I’ll be listening to the whole album this weekend. That’s my idea of fun 🙂

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I’m in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I’m in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I’m in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I

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Ailee: Vocal Queen

Hey guys. I’m really sorry I haven’t been updating my blog. Things have just gotten real busy and crazy. But I’m back today and I want to share with you a woman who’s voice sounds like heaven on earth. And it’s also powerful and gives you goosebumps and makes you cry.

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Her name is Amy Lee, but she’s better known as Ailee (stage name). She’s an American singer based in South Korea. She is signed to YMC Entertainment in South Korea and Warner Music in Japan.

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I stumbled on her song I Will Show You on Youtube while I was watching Korean Music Videos and I was blown away. Like how is someone so talented and with such a bold voice, and powerful too? Then I went ahead to watch her other music videos like Don’t Touch MeHeavenU and IInsaneMind Your Own BusinessIf YouHome (Feat. Yoonmirae), and so much more. She always has a way to tell a story through her music and I really lover her for that.

She recently came back with a new album titled New Empire. It’s mind blowing and she herself said that it is really her style.

Now I want to show you her live performances. Listen to them, your ears will thank you big time. Ailee is amazing, talented and beautiful.

She also covered I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston. (Fun Fact: I Will Always Love You is actually originally by Dolly Parton)

And to finish this post off, Ailee performing If You.

Ailee New Empire Album 

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I hope you had fun reading. Tell me what you think about Ailee in the comments below and if you’re a fan or have listened to her music.

I wish you an amazing week.

Mitchi

Talking To The Moon

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I know. you’re somewhere far away
The night when the blue star lights me up in the room
Lean on the window
Wait for the clouds to wobble in the wind
When the full moon gets a eclipse in my submerged pupil
Stay up all night with my eyes open

Talking to the moon
Maybe you’ll see the moon and talk to me
I expect like a fool
Try to call you but can not reach
My baby please, oh please, my baby

Someday when you listen to my voice in your dreams
Open your lips.
Don’t hesitate to answer. u miss me too
Wait for the clouds to wobble in the wind
Heart filled of longing
When the full moon gets a eclipse in my submerged pupil

Talking to the moon
Maybe you’ll see the moon and talk to me…

Listen to Talking To The Moon By KREAM. It’s a beautiful song.

Late Night starring Me

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You know that feeling when you’re supposed to think about something but then you refuse to think about it, then something happens that forces you to think about it.

Half of me wishes I didn’t thinking about it, or even have to think about it. I managed to ‘not think about it’ for a few months now, but today, a friend sent me a song that totally broke down my walls and forced me to think about it. The song is Afraid by The Neighbourhood.

When I wake up I’m afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I’m afraid, somebody else might take my place

As I started to listen to it, my mind began to tell me that I could relate to that song.

I’m the type of person that would do anything for a true friend, I’d cross oceans for them, climb mountains for them, be there for them, let them know I believe in them even when they don’t believe in themselves. I encourage, strengthen them with positive words, lend an ear when they need someone to talk to. I would do anything just to make them smile and be happy.

Unfortunately…at the end of me doing all that I feel so lonely, and sad, and I feel like I’m alone and just wandering about making others happy, trying to keep myself positive even when it’s like I’m walking through hell.

Like let’s say they need help with promoting a page, I help out as much as I can, or they need to get something done, I’m always there to help out, give advise when they need it. Even with non friends, I still help out.

I can’t help but feel sad when I need help and I’m left alone on desert ground. I really didn’t want to write anything up tonight, but my heart feels so heavy and my eyes are stinging. I just need someone to talk to, someone I connect with.

I noticed that little by little these so called friends began not taking me seriously, and pretty much everything I do is on my own. I avoid group chats because I feel like the odd one out. I can send 5 messages and they all get ignored, so why bother even showing up there o doing what they want?

Little by little I began distancing myself away from them, from talking to people, slowly closing up my heart’s doors. I dont know why I even go on facebook, well it’s to keep my page alive. My page just hit 1000 likes, no thanks to them.

I’m not feeling salty or bitter, I’m just sad and dissapointed in everything, and myself too. I keep asking myself why I can’t just pretend to be all bubbly and get along with all of them. Believe me, I tried, but bubbly Mitchi isn’t me. I’m not someone is 100% happy all the time. I have my blue days, days where I feel so down and alone and dejected. Days where I don’t want to even open my laptop or post anything, days where Iwised that I could just start everything over that maybe, maybe I would turn out to be a different person.

We don’t talk anymore
We don’t talk anymore
We don’t talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don’t love anymore
What was all of it for?
Oh, we don’t talk anymore, like we used to do…

– We Don’t Talk Anymore

I feel like I’m meant to understand others, but no one understands me. I’ve always been the odd one out. No matter where I go, I’m always that odd person. At school, the mall (I hate shopping, unless it’s absolutely necessary). I don’t know why, I guess I’m too different to fit in.

Maybe I haven’t met the right person, or the right group of people yet. I really hope I do…

Thanks for reading my muddled up thoughts. That was Late Night with Mitchi.

Mitchi

Faith In Love

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If our lips should touch it’ll all come rushing back on in,
so when I use my imagination why does it feel like such a sin?
So much space and time has gone by, still I prepare myself for the climb
because you’ve built up your wall so high, making it harder for me to get back inside.
But I won’t throw it all to the wind,
I’ll pick my ladder up and try again,
since I saw tears in your eyes it let me know I’m still a thought in your mind that swims.
Don’t drown me out with a cold cold heart,
Oh no,  don’t let the space get so wide
to the point that you let me fall out your heart, and no longer care that I’m not apart of your life.
Still I climb with faith in love intact to fight the feeling of anxiety, to silence the doubts when I’m feeling shut out. Then your eyes eventually remind me that love is still present, by letting your emotions that you still keep towards me show, you humble yourself and let them flow out.

(written by Apollo Hayden from hellopoetry)

Gasoline

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Are you insane like me? Been in pain like me?
Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me?
Just to pour that motherfucker down the drain like me?
Would you use your water bill to dry the stain like me?

Are you high enough without the Mary Jane like me?
Do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?
Do the people whisper ’bout you on the train like me?
Saying that you shouldn’t waste your pretty face like me?

And all the people say,

“You can’t wake up, this is not a dream,
You’re part of a machine, you are not a human being,
With your face all made up, living on a screen,
Low on self-esteem, so you run on gasoline.”

Oh, oh, oh, oh,
I think there’s a flaw in my code,
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
These voices won’t leave me alone,

Well my heart is gold, and my hands are cold,

Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me?
Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me?
Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me?
Pointing fingers cause you’ll never take the blame like me?

And all the people say,

“You can’t wake up, this is not a dream,
You’re part of a machine, you are not a human being,
With your face all made up, living on a screen,
Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline.”

Oh, oh, oh, oh,
I think there’s a flaw in my code,
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
These voices won’t leave me alone,

Well my heart is gold, and my hands are cold.

Snap Me Back To Reality

(disclaimer: can be triggering, this is a piece about self harming which I wrote when I was battling depression)

In my last piece about depression, I said I was going to be putting up some of the lyrics I wrote during that period. This one’s called Snap Me Back To Reality. I wrote it as a letter to my best friend, who I had promised that I’d never cut again.

Snap Me Back To Reality

Do you ever get that feeling
When you don’t know
What’s wrong with you
But somewhere in you is hurting
And you feel your world is falling apart

The feeling
The sharp piercing pain in your heart
And it has you clutching your chest
Like your life depends on it

I’m sick and tired of feeling this way
Just five little cuts (No)
Just four little cuts (No)
Just three, just two (No)
Please…just one (No)

Please
I’m crying
I feel like I’m dying
But to hid it
I’m smiling
To hid it
I’m lying
I’m lying
I’m lying

Rip my heart out
So I can be fine
(I’m lying)
Just one
Baby just one
Just one

I’m sick and tired of feeling this way
Just five little cuts (No)
Just four little cuts (No)
Just three, just two (No)
Please…just one (No)

Please
I’m crying
I feel like I’m dying
But to hid it
I’m smiling
To hid it
I’m lying
I’m lying
I’m lying

I think I’m addicted
I think I’m afflicted
I can’t stop
Oh baby
Butterflies don’t do the trick no more

I’m smiling but I’m dying
It feels like I’m dying
I’m dying

I’m sick and tired of feeling this way
Just five little cuts (No)
Just four little cuts (No)
Just three, just two (No)
Please…just one (No)

Please
I’m crying
I feel like I’m dying
But to hid it
I’m smiling
To hid it
I’m lying
I’m lying
I’m lying

Emotions keep taking over me
Especially from my past
Please call the doctor
I might not last much longer

I’m sick and tired of feeling this way
Just five little cuts (No)
Just four little cuts (No)
Just three, just two (No)
Please…just one (No)

I’m sick and tired of feeling this way
Just five little cuts (No)
Just four little cuts (No)
Just three, just two (No)
Please…just one (No)

To snap me back to reality
Reality…
Snap me back to reality

 

There it is. I wrote that 20th November 2015. 🙂
At times it flashes to my mind how messed up I was. But hey, I’m proud of who I became. I’m proud that I’m a surviver, that I won the battle. If you’re reading this and battling depression, I believe that it wont get the best of you. You’re sttronger than you know. Way stronger than all the demons racing your mind. You’ll make it through alive. Have faith, and hope. It will carry you through. Live on positivity.

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Take care,
Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year.

Mitchi