Talking To The Moon

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I know. you’re somewhere far away
The night when the blue star lights me up in the room
Lean on the window
Wait for the clouds to wobble in the wind
When the full moon gets a eclipse in my submerged pupil
Stay up all night with my eyes open

Talking to the moon
Maybe you’ll see the moon and talk to me
I expect like a fool
Try to call you but can not reach
My baby please, oh please, my baby

Someday when you listen to my voice in your dreams
Open your lips.
Don’t hesitate to answer. u miss me too
Wait for the clouds to wobble in the wind
Heart filled of longing
When the full moon gets a eclipse in my submerged pupil

Talking to the moon
Maybe you’ll see the moon and talk to me…

Listen to Talking To The Moon By KREAM. It’s a beautiful song.

Is Something Wrong With Me?

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February 5…and I still haven’t written any lyrics. I did write one in January, but I’m yet to edit it.

I really want to write, but I’m can’t. I’m not feeling sad, neither am I depressed or you know anything that’s not happy, or pleased with myself. I’m happy and I’m pleased with myself. But I can’t seem to get around writing a happy set of lyrics. I’ve written one before, I didn’t like it. Everyone else that saw it loved it, but I didn’t. It felt ‘not me’ and fake.

I can just listen to my sad songs playlist, they will definitely make me write something. And by sad songs I mean heart wrenching, deep songs that literally make you feel the pain and make you miss a lover you never had, or feel sad about a breakup you never had. I don’t want to do that because they’ll make me sad.

I really need to start writing happy things, if not Happy like Pharrell Williams, but a song that goes along that direction. A song that truly shows how I’m feeling now…the real me.

I should at least try again.

 

Flowers

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I met a girl with flowers in her hair
not a crown or a clip, but cherry blossoms
they bloomed from her ears and her scalp and the hollow of her neck
she was a garden of eden

I met a girl with flowers in her hair
and roots that ran all the way down through her feet
they never held her in place
instead, they made the earth upon which she stood her home

I met a girl with flowers in her hair
who let summer sunbeams catch her eyes
as they glistened among ferny tendrils
until the autumn came

(written by Nothing Much from hellopoetry)

Fighting Depression

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Yesterday night, my mood got blue and I was just down and sad. I remembered what I always tells people I counsel. “Fight that feeling and feel better. Use positive thoughts to counter the sad negative thoughts you’re having.”

At times even I don’t even take my own advise, but I thought, why not just take my own advise this time?

Guess what? It worked! Instead of my usual looking for sad heart wrenching songs, I looked for happy songs and I got up and started dancing. It’s been a long time since I danced and I had a good time in my room. After I finished and got ready for bed, I was just happy and my spirit was no longer down. I just felt so colourful and amazing. I’ll put down the songs I listened to down here:

1. Me Too by Meghan Trainor

2. No by Meghan Trainor

3. Better When I’m Dancin’ by Meghan Trainor

4. All About That Bass by Meghan Trainor

5. Happy by Pharrell Williams

6. Cheap Thrills by Sia

You can’t help but just start dancing when you listen to songs like that. The only way to fight against negative thoughts is positive thoughts. Try it, it’s worth it. Let lose!

Types of People I Met While Travelling

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Okay so I encountered different types of people. There was the pervy_nice guy, the ‘german’ advise giving guy, the loud kids and also the smarties_eating couples.

1. Pervy_Nice Guy: We met on my first plane here’s what out conversation was like.
Him: You can take of your shoes.
Me: Oh yeah thanks.
Him: You can take off everything else too.
*In my head I’m like what the hell…?*
Me: Hm no no and no.
Him: Come on, it can be two of us.
*I’m wondering why the heck I was even replying him*
Me: No no and no.
Him *pointing to my skirt*: I like your skirt.
Me: Thanks.
The we talked a bit more. I didn’t ask his name and he didn’t ask mine either. He was fun to talk to. He then helped me get to my next terminal for my following flight.
Him: You’re really beautiful, I was going to Germany, then I could see you.
Me: Thanks.
It’s really hard for me to accept compliments about how I look. I don’t really consider myself as pretty or beautiful. Only my family calls me beautiful, and it feels nice. But when an outsider compliments me, I don’t really know exactly how to feel except uncomfortable. Oh and he was kinda cute too… XD

2. The German Advise Giving Guy: While I was waiting for my next flight I took out a pack of gum and put one in my mouth. The man opposite me asked for one and I gave it to him. He then struck a conversation with me.
Him: Where are you going?
Me: Frankfurt.
Him: Oh me too.
Me: Nice.
Him: So what are you going to do there?
Me: To study.
Him: What do you want to study?
Me: I’m still thinking about it.
*Which is true, I was currently thinking about my studies. I don’t like giving people I don’t know infos about me just like that.*
The he starts giving me advise and telling me about his life and I just kept saying nice, wow, good. Because I suck at small talk. I even had to google how to small_talk… 🙂

3. Smarties_eating Couple: Beside me while waiting for the next plane there was this really adorable couple and they were sharing smarties. It made me miss my parents even more. My parents are always so lovey dovey. They’re the reason I believe that true love exists. And I pray for a love like theirs. I’m currently single and I am not into dating anymore, but when I do get to the whole love thing again, I want a love like theirs. It’s pure and beautiful. Every time he talks about her, there’s this glow in his face and his eyes shine like the stars. And I’m always thinking, Wow, I want that too.

4. The Loud Kids: So on my second flight, 3 kids sat behind me and the kept making noise (which was fine because they’re kids) then they started farting and the smell was coming to me and I was trying to sleep. It was horrible but I survived!

I had fun. Yeah there were times that I wished that I wasn’t on my own, but oh well. I’m a big girl now.

Things You Should Never Do Before Travelling

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Okay so before I travelled I did some things that I wasn’t supposed to do the day before I travelled.

1. When your eye is itchy do not itch it unless you want it looking like someone punched you in the face: My eyes were itching so bad and I kept itching it. In the morning I had a red-eye and went out looking like I had gotten into a boxing ring and got my ass handed to me the night before.

2. Do not were tight clothing no matter how nice it looks. You’ll wish for baggies at some point: My top was tight, my skirt was tight my sweater was tight. I thought it looked really nice which it did, but it was so uncomfortable. 😦

3. Do not ask the server for things you do not know even if she offers them. Play safe and pick the things you know: Okay so on the plane the server was like ‘Ravioli or Chicken’. And I was like Ravioli,´. She gave that to me and boi it did not taste nice to me at all. So I couldn’t eat it and I was hungry. Thank God for the cake and bread cause I really didn’t know what else to do and I was too lazy to stand up and take my bag that was overhead. Cookies were in there.

4. Know how to open the toilet door from inside: So I didn’t know how to open the toilet door and I couldn’t get out. I got scared because I thought no one would hear me. I banged on the door as hard I could until someone came to open for me. I was so embarrassed.

I have more posts coming up about my flight. There’s so much to write about. And it’s snowing. I love snow.

Happy Sunday!